A thought as I await..

In every story..

A hidden emotion..

In every word..

An untold truth..

In every pause..

A moment..

Waiting for you..

-Andy1076

 

 

The real monsters among us and a prayer

Man who beat stepdaughter to death loses his appeal.

I rarely step away from writing poetry and quotes, It is a passion of mine. But, after reading this article this morning I couldn’t focus on anything else. We often hear on the news about bank robberies and shootings and people losing their lives, It’s the sad reality of the world we live in. But, This is too much. The above article speaks about a step father who assaults his step daughter by beating her to death and prior to the murder he had burned the little girl with a cigarette lighter a number of times. 

The heart wrenching part though, Is despite being in agonizing pain after being burned. The little girl made her way to her mother’s bedroom. Knowing that her step father would be there, to tell her mother that she was in pain by saying ‘boo boo tummy” prior to collapsing on the ground. The little angel clearly braved her way to her mother hoping to find safety and comfort, but in doing so further aggrevated a ruptured vein in her body, that’s when she took her last breath and was pronounced dead at the hospital.

It’s amazing how much our legal system fails us here. I mean seriously, after his actions they still granted this coward a chance at an appeal? He assaulted a child who not only couldn’t fight back but holds no hate and only fear and curiosity. Yet, they granted him what? 5 minutes to make a pathetic defence that he only had grade 9 education and was only 22? sorry but, that’s not an argument. That’s a coward refusing to admit that he’s done something insanely monstrous. Now, I know I probably will sound out of line here but where is the mother in all this? where’s her statement? I pray and pray that the little angel has made her way back to heaven where she’s no longer suffering and true justice will be served upon the monster that took her life. 

 

Yet Your Beauty Is Beyond Words I Can Describe..

 

Adapting Takes More Strength

 

Sharing A Journal Entry: My Morning Runs

“If you truly mattered..They would never have left you in the distance..”

One of the biggest lessons I’ve learned from doing my morning runs. Is there’s always going to be someone who will be on the same path as you. Some, will stop to say hello and want to get to know you and some will just keep on walking past while you talk. In some ways, this applies to life as well.

We are all trying to reach one destination, along the way we meet many different people. Some are meant to stay, some are simply in the middle of a transition and are just curious about the path you are taking. They will join you and show you some of the obstacles they’ve faced and help you overcome yours, after that. It’s time to keep moving, It’s only hard to move on because we then realize how quiet and how alone it can get. 

 

The sweetest words..

 

The most heart touching words that gets someone through the day aren’t in the form of a poem, or even a heartfelt quote but two sets of words from the one you love. Just a hello and a how are you will do, it’s true. That the sweetest things come in small packages (“,)

-Andy1076

 

Why Ask When You Can Shape?

Why didn’t I fulfill my dreams? why didn’t I achieve my goals? why am I here? Why am I not where I want to be? we all ask these questions every day. I have no answers, But I put forth this thought. Why ask these questions? why not just take what you have now and shape it into something great? Is that not what we all strive for?

-Andy1076

 

A Beautiful Movie & A Story With A Message

My little lady and I watched a movie this evening, It really touched both our hearts and it was very likely the most heart warming and touching movie I have seen thus far. Take a look at the link if you wish, It really is quite beautiful the wa it was directed and how the story goes. Enjoy!

Hachiko – A Dog’s Story

 

Is It Monday Still?

You know you are having quite the day, when you hang up on a business director three times. Because you are holding onto the phone handle but the cord is hanging 3 feet down disconnected. Oh man, what else am I being served this morning! X(

 

Random day quote

As writers, we often look downwards at our notebook searching for something to write. But, every so often we need to look around us. See the world for how it is, so we can draw out inspiration from within it all.

-Andy1076

 

Mid-Week…Thoughts?

Last night, I had a really fun chat with someone I consider very close to my heart. We aren’t in a relationship or anything, but since day one we always felt that we’ve known each other forever. I guess somewhere along the chat I lost track of time and I ended up sleeping at around 12:30am, so I set the usual alarm time and hoped to fall asleep and that my insomnia would give me a break.

Sure enough, I woke up an hour later than I should and bolted out that door with a chocolate bar in my mouth! I had 15 minutes to run to that metro station and hop onto that train! by god given miracle I made it whew! I hate starting mornings like these,

Normally I would be pretty irritable but you know what? If I could do it all over again? I would. Life rarely gives us chances to spend time with the ones closest to us, to really connect and catch up on everything. Don’t let it pass by, who knows how long it will be before it comes again. I hope you are all having a great mid week

 

Trials and promises of a single father

My married life was complicated by several factors including a very angry mother in law, so my ex wife went through a lot of pressure being pregnant and playing mediator. In the midst of tension building up our daughter was born, she was too young to understand and went through a lot of confusion. I made a promise though at her baby crib after I held her to sleep, that I wouldn’t let this conflict hurt her.

It hasn’t been easy, my ex wife made several accusations that were all fabricated by her family and groups. But, I’ve stood my ground each time and in turn I’ve raised a very loving daughter. I won’t deny that it’s been difficult, I’ve had to go through a lot of trials but I’ve succeeded in them all. The key is to keep the children out of the conflict, this way they learn all of life’s difficult situations on their own.

-Yoshi1076

 

Time to let go

Let go of your past and you let go of your pains, let go of all your regrets and you open the doorway to your future. Let go of your expectations and you will know patience, let go of the ones that have hurt you worst and you will find peace. Letting go doesn’t always have to be a hard decision, sometimes it’s the only right thing to do.

-Yoshi1076

 

Random thought

Why didn’t I fulfill my dreams? why didn’t I achieve my goals?how come I’m here now? how come I’m not where I want to be? we all ask these questions every day but I put forth one question myself. Why ask these questions? why not take what you have now and make it into something so great that these will no longer matter? I don’t have all the answers, but even if I did I’d prefer not knowing so I’ll always have something to strive for.

-Yoshi1076

 

The heart..

The heart isn’t perfect, it second guesses and doubts all the time. It never really knows what it wants, that’s why in our minds we are constantly in conflict with ourselves. It’s hard to figure out what we want 

 

Monday quote

To ask for love to be granted, is to ask to be given something that may or may not have existed in the beginning. Love, has no expectations and is given freely without thought and without hesitation. It is a feeling, that is within you before you realize you had it.

-Yoshi1076

 

My only desire..to say one last goodbye..

 

One last goodbye..this is my only desire..I know our heavenly father called you home and with your unwavering faith you returned to him..I wish I had the chance to say one last goodbye..to tell you I found my purpose..I’ve found my calling..I wish I could once again listen to your flawless piano melodies..so I will honor your memory with playing my melodies..with words from my heart..the heart you strengthened through all the pain I’ve suffered..I miss you still and I shall carry on your wish..

 

Proving beyond doubt

To sacrifice your dreams for the one you love, that’s proving your feelings. To give your all and not needing a reason why though, that’s truly proving your love beyond doubt.

- Yoshi1076

 

 

 

Monday quote

 

When you know you’re living a lie, it’s time to start accepting everything as it is. The truth may hurt, but at least it will make you that much stronger.

-Yoshi1076

 

A blunt opinion on parenting

The other day, I overheard two different parents talk about ways to discipline their kids. One parent chose the ultimatum that either her son gets a job or she’s kicking him out of the house. The other parent was complaining about how her daughter has yet to give her anything for her bday. Yeah thats what her words were, Neither of them had any problems with everyone else hearing all this, I couldn’t help but wonder two things. First, what were they hoping to gain from doing this? and second why haven’t they considered talking to their kids? they ARE human beings too! I’m not saying I’m a perfect parent or that I have all the answers, but my daughter always tells me that her mother’s too busy to chat with her. So, what I do often is my daughter and I go out for ice cream and talk like best friends. Sometimes we go paddling a boat and just talk about my experiences when I was her age, as a result she understands my expectations and what’s on my mind too. Isn’t that much easier than ultimatums like those two parents? I certainly would think so..!

 

Don’t ask me why..

 

 

Don’t ask me why..

I don’t ever know why..

Don’t ask me how..

I never wonder how..

Don’t ask me if i will ever..

I only know forever..

Don’t ask me why you..

I only ever want you..

Don’t ever ask me what i want again..

I only want your love no matter how many times you ask..

Don’t ask me how i know ..

If you didn’t feel it too would you be reading this far?

This love isn’t near or far..

It never left..

 

If only you knew

I wish you could understand what it is I felt whenever we spent time together, maybe then you will understand what it is like. To be so at peace that nothing else matters, to realize that time has no meaning and that feelings are all that really make the moment so right. I hope that someday you will understand why it has always been so hard to let you go even when you had actually left so long ago..

 

Random morning thoughts

A friend made a post on her blog that got me thinking, yeah. People do fall in and out of love and people drift apart, but is it really that simple and to the point? some things aren’t so mutual, I for one wonder if i’ll really ever find someone who doesn’t feel the need to drift away and vanish from my life in a few months, am I the only one that feels this way?the feeling of looking back and noticing that you’re mentioning almost everyone in past tense?

 

If life can’t give you what you want

If  life can’t give you what you want, then work at it. It’s all about going out there and grabbing hold with two hands, if you don’t at least try then how do you know if you ever had a chance to begin with? it’s something to think about the next time you might have a thought of what if and maybe if.

 

When your heart is in the right place

The beauty of a meaningful relationship is so much more than what one makes the other feel physically, it goes beyond even ambitions or dreams. It’s about sharing that feeling that just can’t be described, that incredible feeling that makes you so certain that this is the one, without a doubt and that it is what you truly want. If you share this? then you know your heart is in the right place.

 

 

The heart doesn’t accept the same things the mind does..

The trouble with being only human..is the inability to accept what is already blatantly on front of us..either because it hurts too much or we refuse to believe it..after all.. the heart can only handle so much ..so what does that say about the ones causing the pain? do they live in so much bliss that everything they do is alright? I guess I should be glad, that I’ll never go down to that level.

 

The choices we make

We don’t choose where we want to be down the road, life gives us options and from those options fate takes us the rest of the way. In the journey we take with fate by our side we meet many people along the way, many of which change the course of our lives and ultimately take us to where we are now, the choice was always yours. So, did you make the right ones?

 

Sand castles

You can build a sand castle by the shores and make it as strong as you can with both your hands, you can dig holes all around it to make sure the waters don’t bring it down. But if you take your eyes off it for even a minute? it will all come crashing down and no matter how hard you try it’ll always look and feel different when you try to build it again.

Sometimes, love can feel so much like this, you can try as hard as you can to strengthen the relationship. But at times it’s not enough and it comes crashing down when you least expect it, Then. No matter how hard you try, there’s simply no rebuilding it. You can’t have something again once it’s gone, but you can try and make the best of what you now have.

 

When one’s worth can be set in numbers

It’s a sad thing, when some people think they are too perfect or too full of themselves to make the effort to simply greet or respond to someone who’s simply giving a friendly greeting, what is it that gives such level of arrogance to think they are worthy of being on such a high pedestal? is it based on how much someone has in terms of income or reputation now? i wonder at times what makes human nature fall so far, that the worth of man can be set in numbers. Am i the only one who feels this way? or am i being too selfish myself?

 

Like two leaves

Like two leaves being blown around in the wind..you are always near..I see you.. I feel you..yet the harder I try to reach to you..the further you drift from me..So I’ll stop trying..Not because I lost hope but because..I love you so much I will wait for you..Until then I will lay down below..watch you beautifully dance above..waiting to catch you as you fall into my arms..

-Andy1076

 

The ones that matter

If ever asked what I thought was the biggest lesson in life always ignored, I’d have to say knowing who matters to us in the end are the ones who are always there for us through it all, Compared to the ones that were always chasing after their own dreams and ambitions, to really care. Imagine how easily one forgets that huh?

 

Blunt thoughts about instincts

Don’t blame others for what you refused to see all along, it was always right on front of you. There just was a part of you that didn’t want to believe it. Instincts come from the heart, trust in it and you will always save yourself a painful heartbreak.

 

Reaching your goals, with your heart..

When the world tries to tell you that you can’t accomplish your goals, don’t just show them that you can. But, also show them how so they may also reach theirs. Don’t do it out of spite and don’t do it just because you want to rub it in their faces, but do it so that they may pass the message to the next person. They will never forget your good will and don’t do it out of the need for popularity because a real heart asks for no recognition, a real heart stays humble. It’s too easy to fall into the temptation of being ambitious as ambition leads to greed and with greed you lose yourself into expectations. Then from expectations we are led to disappointment, so go for your goals and remember to listen to your heart before your mind.

 

Someday you might understand

I might smile, laugh or look the other way whenever you play games with my feelings. I’m not being a fool, nor do I choose to be one. I’m just waiting for you to see, what a real friend is willing to put himself through. Just in case you need someone to talk to, Maybe then you will understand patience and the value of a real heart.

 

You can’t hold on to what is gone..

Some feelings you can’t hold on to once they are gone..you can’t hold on to love once it is gone..you can’t hold on to affection when you no longer feel it..nor can you hold the warmth once the heart has become cold..you can hold on to only hope..not the hope that the feeling will return..hope that you will have the strength to realize you gave it all you had and..that it is time to move on..the wisdom to realize that there’s nothing left to look back at..

 

Someone who will hear your thoughts..

Speaking your thoughts to someone who does not have the heart to hear them.. is like a gentle breeze..they feel something come from your lips..but they don’t hear the words..your effort becomes devoid of feelings and therefore meaningless..save your thoughts for someone who will not only have the heart to hear you..but will share your thoughts..

 

Thoughts and ambitions..

Character isn’t defined solely by thoughts or ambitions..it is defined by actions that follow through from those thoughts..and how it affects someone through those actions..

 

Be honest with yourself

Repressed thoughts are like ropes being wound up together, the more you try not to think about something the more it builds up. Then the more it builds up the more tension you feel from it, until eventually you snap and the worst thing you can do is snap at the one person that matters in your life most.

Be honest with yourself, show your real feelings and your real thoughts. Don’t ever assume nobody will understand, there’s always someone ready to hear your thoughts if only they knew.

 

 

Defining beauty and wealth

A person’s personality makes the clothes and charisma defines how rich you really are beyond material wealth, great beauty is a gift from our lord, but the heart to see everyone equally is his greatest gift second only to life.

 

Selfishness has no limits

It’s a selfish thing about people that just bugs me, just a few minutes ago I just overheard on the commute to work a guy who was commenting about his breakup with his gf, and his friend (a lady) tells him that it’s alright and that it isn’t the end, then she starts to give examples about how it was before she met her fiancé. I couldn’t help but give her a glance, the hell kind of friend is this?? I thought.

I understand how the guy feels, he just found himself single again and he is going to miss having someone to share everything with, I’m not even talking about just the physical side of things. I’m referring to someone he can go hang out with and share his goals with, his friend does make sense though when she says that a breakup isn’t the end, he can always move on.

What annoyed me? was how casually she went to talking about her relationship, what on earth gave her the right when she has no idea how he’s feeling right now? she’s going to get off work later and hang out with her fiancé and be happy with what she has, he is going to go home and hear all about it later on either Facebook or Twitter. She was going on about it for almost a half hour.

How can she be so damn selfish patting herself on the back when someone is looking for support? I bet she wouldn’t appreciate it if the roles were reversed and he was gloating, some people only think about what they have and rarely what others need..

 

When someone really listens to you..

When things don’t go right with us and we need answers, some of us bottle it all up and some of us find ways to get it out of our system. Whether by working out, or going for a run till your heart is beating too fast to care anymore. Then there are those who turn to someone to talk to, but what do we really look for when we are hoping for someone to talk to?

Do we want someone who will constantly agree with us or do we want someone who can voice their opinions as well? to give us options and to give us an idea about where we are heading? sometimes it seems that a person who just agrees with you isn’t really listening, whereas someone who wants to give their opinion to you seems like they are assuring you that they are listening to every word you say. I don’t know if this makes any sense?

 

What’s on the surface

Looks on the outside only tell people what kinds of clothes and hairstyle you like, it doesn’t say much about a person. What does say a lot though is what a person is like inside, how that is shown is by actions. Show everyone how amazing you are deep down and they will show you every reason why you’re perfect just the way you are!

 

Don’t do it for gratitude, do it for yourself..

When you know you have to do something, that might hurt your reputation with others. But, in the process help someone stay away farm harm. It’s hard at times to give up something you’ve built up for so long, but you need to take yourself out of the equation and see the bigger picture. If something wrong continues then someone will hurt so much more in the long run, others might not understand this and you may have to suffer for it for a little while. But, at least you will have the peace in your heart that you have done the right thing. If you don’t ever get gratitude for this, it’s alright. You did it because you care about someone enough to go through it, not because you expected recognition.

 

To do right things

You can’t do wrong if you do things for the right reasons, but you can never do right by doing it for the wrong reasons. At least, that’s what I was taught so why is it so easy for others to be so selfish? so much that they think of only doing things for themselves?

 

In a world so selfish

People will always judge you, no matter what you do. If you have something that they don’t they will judge you as someone they will plot to gain, if you don’t have something they have then they will judge you inferior to them. If you take everything with a smile, someone will judge you as someone they can take advantage of. It’s a tough world out there in a world that can be so selfish, but so long as you don’t do the same as them you will always come out on top. There’s people out there looking for someone like you, you just haven’t met them yet.

 

Someone who sees you efforts

When your efforts aren’t recognized, it’s time to stop trying. Because someone real and kind, won’t only see you trying but will also cheer you on.

 

When trust is misplaced

I think of myself as a lover..a father to a daughter..a friend and a gentleman to my peers and workplace people like colleagues, I treat everyone with the same level of respect as I would want to be treated myself. Ask anyone of the office staff and you’d get the same answer.

But, to get accused of being something I’m not even if by a small group. Without proof? on nothing more than the word of a backstabbing person I once called a friend? that’s too much. I don’t deserve it, why are people so ready to believe someone simply because they known him longer than me? don’t people ever think that they are manipulated? I guess trust doesn’t overcome lies huh?

 

Think with your heart first..

When making a tough decision, don’t make a choice because it’s the first one that comes to mind. Instead, take a moment to search for the answer in your heart. It will never fail you, because through all the pain it has endured. It has never failed to remember all your mistakes, it will make the right choices for you..

 

There’s always a better way

People do a lot of things when they want something really badly, some will do it without thinking about who they might hurt along the way. Then there are those who figure that it’s alright because in the end they can get what they want and later apologize to people they trampled over to get it. As if that isn’t bad enough, there are those who simply don’t care and will use others to achieve their goals.

It’s not fair no matter how you look at it, but at least we don’t have to be like those people. There’s always a choice, if there’s something we want to achieve then we can always ask someone who may have advice on how to achieve that goal. This way, nobody is hurt along the way and if these are our really close friends they may even be cheering us on, ask me what choice i’d make? this would be it.

 

Don’t forget your own goals

Ever felt like you’re always chasing after someone else’s dream? sometimes we do that, when we are so much in love with someone. We help them achieve their goals and we put ours on hold, when you feel so strongly about someone nothing else matters. Then after they have achieved their goals you are happy for them but what of your own? what will you do? this is when you have to ask yourself if you have decided to pursue your own dreams or will you be left behind? don’t ever forget to chase after your own goals too, life is too short to waste it just sitting and wondering.