I thought I could heal you..Show you the world you had yet to see..Instead..Over time..I found that it was my heart that needed to be saved..So..No matter how it ended I will eternally be grateful for the love you shared..
Category Archives: Dedication
The moments we share..Forever in our memories..The words we speak..Eternally alive in our hearts..the dreams we wish for..We will reach..Together..
SO! I Get up one morning and I find out that I received the above award from Sandy Seeber! Thank you so much Sandy! this is what I call the start of a great month, but wait! there are rules to my accepting this award, shall we look into them?
1. Thank the person who nominated you and link back to them in your post.
2. Share 7 things about yourself
3. Pass the award to 15 more bloggers that you enjoy
4. Contact people you’ve nominated
I’ve done #1 So, Let’s move on to number two
7 Things About Myself
- I write my own quotes based on my life experiences
- I am a devoted single dad to my daughter
- I am a first aid attendant at the local Arena
- I enjoy photography more than anything
- I really need to get out there and explore
- I hate fake people
- I value honesty above all other traits
15 People To Be Nominated For Award
- Sabiana @ http://sabinianabalagtasbaliba.com/
- Red @ http://mommasmoneymatters.com/
- Kris Merino @ http://myintelligentlife.wordpress.com/
- Mona @ http://monahoward.wordpress.com
- Fitness Loving Mom @ http://fitnesslovingmom.wordpress.com
- Rosairus @ http://anythingvisual.com/about/
- Adollyciousirony @ http://allaboutlemon.com/about/
- Janice @ http://cafe23.me
- Leslee hare @ http://lesleehare.wordpress.com/
- April Denton @ http://http://aprilrdenton.wordpress.com
- Aureamoralist @ http://auroramorealist.wordpress.com
- Motley News @ http://motleynews.net/about/
- Safeera @ http://safeerasarjoo.wordpress.com/
So! Congrats to everyone here and keep all the awesome posts coming!
I have been nominated the Versatile Blogger Award by Sue at A word in your ear. Yesterday, I do apologize for taking so long! I guess I let my photo editing addiction get the best of me on time management lol!
So, the tradition states that the only way to accept this award. Is if I list 7 things about myself and list 15 blogs which I enjoy reading from, Let’s get started shall we?
7 Things About Me (Insert dramatic thriller movie sound here)
- I am a photography addict
- I do 95% of my photography and editing on my iPad and iPhone
- I am a single dad to the world’s sweetest daughter
- I am so not ready for what’s coming in her teenage years lol!
- I am starting school hopefully next month again
- I enjoy offering first aid assistance at the arena
- I am crazy addicted to new electronics
Having said all those things about me, Now you know why my blogs are so random and never just one theme. What can I say? I grab life by the handful as the saying goes! So, onto the next part of the rule! I have to pass the award onto 15 blogs. So, In no particular order? because I enjoy them all?
15 Blogs I Enjoy
If you have yet to visit any of these blogs, I really recommend you give them a visit! I’m confident you will enjoy them as much as I do, Have a wonderful rest of the week everyone
Yesterday, I was at work doing my usual things and noticed I was getting a lot of emails. I always follow back and always read all the posts, so I was really surprised that a lot of the emails were from wordpress telling me I was getting blog “Likes”! it totally made my day!
Imagine how happy I was when I found out in the evening that I had gotten 233 hits on my blog! so! this is me thanking all of you my friends and kind readers for making my day an incredible one! you are all truly my inspiration to write
One last goodbye..this is my only desire..I know our heavenly father called you home and with your unwavering faith you returned to him..I wish I had the chance to say one last goodbye..to tell you I found my purpose..I’ve found my calling..I wish I could once again listen to your flawless piano melodies..so I will honor your memory with playing my melodies..with words from my heart..the heart you strengthened through all the pain I’ve suffered..I miss you still and I shall carry on your wish..
Last year, someone I was once close to had an idea to see if there was something there. She came up with the thought of us not texting, not even sending twitter messages. Essentially nothing at all between us for 48 hours, at first it didn’t seem that hard but it was crazy hard after even the first 8! it helped her with her quiz results at school but boy did it make my days long!
I will compose you a song..
There won’t be need for words..
I won’t need melodies..
The melody is your beautiful heart..
I won’t need words..
Our love speaks a million thoughts..
I won’t need time to compose..
Our love is says it all..
I won’t need a studio..
Anywhere is fine as long as i’m with you..
I won’t need to ask..
Do you know this song…
..It is the song of my love for you..
Don’t ask me why..
I don’t ever know why..
Don’t ask me how..
I never wonder how..
Don’t ask me if i will ever..
I only know forever..
Don’t ask me why you..
I only ever want you..
Don’t ever ask me what i want again..
I only want your love no matter how many times you ask..
Don’t ask me how i know ..
If you didn’t feel it too would you be reading this far?
This love isn’t near or far..
It never left..
It’s been quite the roller coaster week, I’ve been super busy with the concerts at the arena and trying to put as many hours as i can at work. Thus, my posts have been a little “eh” since I’ve hit what many affectionately call writers block lol! so i want to thank you all for being such kind readers and still visiting my blog!
On the personal level, this has been an incredible week! from my baby girl calling me to see how i’m doing to her emails telling me how much she misses me. She has helped me brush aside all the stresses of the week and given me constant healing, i’ll never know why the lord has blessed me with such an incredible child but i am eternally grateful! along this week I’ve also had a chance to really catch up with some coworkers i hadn’t seen for a very long time, so life is going good for a change <Happy!>
When do we listen to our heart..when are we willing to accept what it is truly what we want..and not what we feel is right at the time..? is it when we are alone in our silence and thinking about where this is all going..? if so..know that i am at peace..in the silence always waiting to listen if you ever need someone who will listen to your thoughts and never judge..as i always have been..as i always will be..
For the longest time, I’ve asked myself why I’ve endured the pain that I’ve been going through daily for the past two weeks. In those moments I thought I’d never be at peace, always tormented by the past and never being content about anything.
Then tonight, I received my answer. I found someone who shared my experiences and my emotional pain, not only did she understand how I’ve been feeling but she read every word i had written down, I can’t remember the last time someone cared this much. I am so forever grateful for a great friend who helped guide me the right direction, I have found the peace I’ve sought after for so long thanks to her.
Sometimes, when couples lose what they once had together. It hurts and it is almost like there’s a part of you that you can’t quite reach, it gnaws at you one bit at a time. Until it becomes too much and you know you have to let go. It’s always better to let go of something you think isn’t coming back is it not? or is it?
Recently, I see so many relationships where the couples have split in romance. But, somehow they have managed to salvage at least part of the friendship that was there before. At first glance, it didn’t make sense to me because if a couple split then doesn’t that mean there’s nothing left to say?
Then it came to me earlier as I was coming back from work, a close friend was listening to my troubles. She heard every word that i was saying and understood everything I was feeling as well as the why. It was the reason I once considered her to be so much more, because. Who could possibly know you better than someone who once held your heart right? leaving behind all the bitterness of whet happened. This is someone who will always be there for you, I’m not saying it’s easy but it’s something worth giving a chance to.
Distance is only a word, something that is said to describe how far you are from where you need to be, nothing more.
The same can almost be said about relationships too, you aren’t really ever distant from the one you loved as long as you hold the memories close to you. Then, everything feels alive again. Even if, those feelings don’t get returned because you were always true.
When everything and everyone seems to be coming down on me, I am so grateful for the ones that remind me to keep my head up above water. People who never start the day with a list of things they want from me, instead they always started the conversation with how I am and how everything is going. It’s so awesome that despite all the things people are capable of doing, there’s still down to the core honest and kind people out there.
Thank you so much all of you folks that have helped me kick start this week on a positive note, if it wasn’t for you I’d still have that dark cloud over my head. You know who you all are my twitter friends and kind readers
So glad it’s finally Friday, my angel and I are planning something fun this weekend, go kart racing! it’s hard to believe she’s already at the age where she’s thinking about driving those things. But, where better to start learning some skills right?
Lil lady has every right to have fun, she’s so good to me! last week she had food poisoning from the Richmond night market. She felt horribly bad the next day, but still got up and grabbed her purse to hang out with me. She clearly wasn’t feeling right but wasn’t about to let that ruin our day, she was determined to have fun with me and there was no but’s about it. Don’t know where she draws so much strength from but I’d like to think that the lord has blessed me with one of his angels, so here’s to getting this week over with and on to weekend fun
If you look up above..when the stars are shining..and you are wondering if i am looking up as well..at the same sky as you are..make a wish upon any of the stars above..know that i too am doing the same so somewhere along the way..we will be looking at the same star and making the same wish together..that our love will last no matter the distance..so long as the sky above shines in the day..and comforts us in the night..
I was thinking about what I had to deal with over the week, not only did I face rejection from someone who knows nothing about me. But, also that same person telling everyone else to avoid me. Through no fault of my own,
All this. Compounded by later being twice reminded that there’s nothing left for me to salvage from what I used to have with someone I considered close to me, in case you wonder? no, it wasn’t back to back. It happened between last Friday up to yesterday. I have to say, I’ve just about gave up any hope of anyone understanding me.
Fortunately, I am blessed with someone in my life who has never given up on me. She has stayed with me all this time, through the thick of it and never asked for anything in return. People like her, have shown me who has always put my feelings ahead of their own. When everyone else has just been keeping me down, I’m so grateful and I know who matters to me at the end of the day. How about you?
I’m so glad it’s finally Saturday, every second weekend i get to spend an overnight weekend with my little lady. Either we go do something crazy like plan to go to the suspension bridge and look over 200 feet down below us, or we simply hang out at home with heart to heart talks. She is the only reason i still keep going, it doesn’t matter the heartbreak or what anyone puts me through the weekdays. My angel always finds a way to heal me, so i’ll be posting a little less while i spend time with her as she reminds me how good of a job i am doing as a father thank you so much for everyone reading my posts over the week! you’re awesome!!
Every day is a test of how far I
can go, either someone is making my life miserable at work or someone is leaving me hanging waiting for an answer. Typical, it’s great to know though that someone is always there to back me up through it all, so thankful for great people that help me get through the day!
I don’t know where i’m going, or what i will find when i finally get there. This has been a hard journey in my life and i always feel there’s more i can do and so much more to share, always searching and always understanding.
There’s so much more for me to learn, about life and the people that share it with me. In some ways, i hope i never arrive at that destination because this has been a journey where I’ve met incredible people that travel the same path i do, that is you my readers and thank you so much for your kind comments. You really are, my inspiration (“,)
He does not sing..
He does not perform..
He does not act..
He paints a world..
His feelings are his brush..
His thoughts are his paint..
His imagination is his canvas..
His love for her is his inspiration..
His love for her is his perfect world..
In a room full of people with so many masks, i searched for someone who didn’t have to hide from one mask to another. Until i found you in the crowd, someone real and with nothing to hide. All you said was one word that caught my heart and i knew we didn’t need to ever search again. The word you said was simply hello, a greeting that touched me so deep down that there was not ever a need to say goodbye again.
I gave some thought as to what i haven’t tried yet, i learned a number of things within myself and have overcome a lot of my fears. So, the thought of my daughter came and i thought about what lesson i may learn about faith through her.
I then realized that as a toddler she always feared the swimming pool, every time we dressed her up in a cute little swimsuit she always had this look of worry in her face. She would kick all over the place desperately holding on to me because of her fear, but gradually she got over her fear and not long after, she stopped using floaters and started to swim. It was a few short years before she started competing in swimming races with her club, not long later we took her out to do some ice skating. She struggled of course, kept falling time and again and no matter how hard she fell, she always seemed to want to just give up but every time she did. She looked at me and it wasn’t the look of worry that i might be disappointed, but the look of determination.
In time she started taking figure skating lessons once she became better than i could of imagined, of course as a father i am beaming in pride. I’ve wondered what gave her so much drive and determination, i wasn’t there for her during the weekdays to cheer her on when i wish i could.
Then, it struck me and i realized it was the one thing we all forget. Faith, when she was fearful of the swimming pool she had faith that she would one day through her kicking understand what it is like to rid of the floaters. When she went onto the ice at the arena she had faith that she would understand how to skate, faith had in herself gave her the drive to continue. All i did, was let her understand this on her own. If it wasn’t for our faith in ourselves we would never be able to climb the highest mountains or reach our lofty goals, if it wasn’t for faith we would never understand how god must feel when he see us accomplish impossible goals.
I was chatting with a friend of mine about simple stuff, while at the same time i was also blogging on the side about things that are coming up tomorrow and how much stress it will be to me. Then as though my friend knew that i needed that positive vibe she gave me the best cheer up i could ever think of! It’s true what they say about how the sweetest things in life really are the most unexpected (“,)
Earlier this evening, i noticed someone familiar, It was someone i used to school with that i didn’t really talk much to. We took a couple of classes together and barely knew each other. She was always very kind to me and a couple of times came to talk to me at the lunch room, we helped each other with our math questions. Then, when school and everything was over we all parted ways.
I didn’t think i’d see her again or anyone from the class for that matter, then i saw her at the food court when my daughter and i were buying our dinner. She didn’t recognize me, but she still had a great smile as ever and still had the same positive vibe as when she and i were taking classes years ago, it’s great to know that time doesn’t change some people. I just wish, that the same would apply to everyone who had come and gone from my life. So many people have changed, sometimes it’s as if i never knew them at all…
Sometimes in order to see the world clearly, we need to push aside the veil of lies before we can clearly see what’s behind it. What we see then is something that comes to us like the light of day, we finally see real people. The ones that have always been there for you but you were too busy being lied to, the ones that will never replace you because they see your true self. If you were to ask me, was it worth it to hurt like i did to finally come to this conclusion? I’d say it was worth every heart break and every time someone left me behind to chase their own ambitions, because now i know better and am stronger with the support of the people who have always been there all along.
In the times when i need someone to talk to, i write and i hope someone can relate to how i feel or what i am thinking. Then maybe i can understand why i feel the way i do. Then when i need to vent all my emotions i put them right here, because this is the place i know that i can go to say what i want to say how i want to say it. Without being judged and if misunderstood, then at least i have a chance to explain myself. So, all of you. My kind readers thank you for being here even if at times my posts make almost no sense. (“,)
If someone matters to you, don’t just say you’ll be there just because it sounds good. Make the effort or everything you said before that simply won’t count for much.
Even though we are miles from each other. I never once felt that way, you’re always there to remind me that I’m better than what others say about me. Not once have I ever had the chance to doubt that you’d be there to hear what was on my mind, even if it was something that might hurt your feelings. They say you should give and never expect anything in return, but I can’t help but be incredibly grateful for your just being you.
Sometimes it really becomes too much, when nobody sees what you are trying to really do. Like when you try to be good to someone and they walk away from you because they have a perception of you that they aren’t willing to let go, then you try to be there for a friend and are told to get lost. It can be get to that point where it becomes painfully obvious that nobody wants you, so what do you do at this point? do you go to a corner of your mind and pretend everything is alright? or do you wait patiently for someone to come along that won’t give up even when you say you are fine and you just had a long day?
Personally, when people remind me how little i mean to them. I don’t let it get me down, i just wait patiently for someone to care. I won’t go running around looking for sympathy either, because deep down i know there’s someone that understands me. Then before i know it, i get a message from a friend who’s never failed me and i then realize that there’s nothing i can’t do, no feeling i can’t overcome. Just comes to show, faith provides us with all we could ever need. We just have to be willing to be patient, no matter how hard it gets.
In our pursuit of what we want, we don’t often enough think about what we should be grateful for. A great many things in life come to us only once in a lifetime, like great friends who are always there to support us when we least expect it because they care enough to read between the lines and never fail you. If it wasn’t for faithful friends we’d never reach our goals because they are the ones saying “Keep going” when all the while you are telling yourself “I am happy just being here”. Be good to your friends that never abandoned you, because they would never dream of leaving you to hang! i know i am! (“,)
Sitting at the top of the building where they had once shared their memories together, he looked over the horizon in the night. As the sun rose, the ocean created a work of art in yellow and red. The warmth caressed his silent face as he closed his eyes, he whispered a name and as he opened his eyes he could see the graceful beauty of the sun. In his eyes he saw her beautiful eyes overlooking from the distance, her graceful long hair waved gently like the oceans beyond. The warmth of the sun like her embrace when she could take away his worries every time he knew sorrow, she was now distant from him since they had parted ways. But, his memories of her will be kept within his heart where even time won’t fade the feelings within..
Last night, I was going through a lot of things on my mind. Stress and disappointments had been building up from mistakes I made and wondering what led me to them, I didn’t want to burden anyone so I figured I’d try to get some sleep but it never happened.
I was up tossing and turning and on twitter reading messages till I felt sleepy, but then a coworker texted to change shifts and that woke me right up again.
It wasn’t long before i received a message on twitter from a close friend that i was calm enough to sleep from 3am to 4:00am before going to the gym, but at least I got a bit of rest!
Just comes to show you how little things can have the biggest impact, I didn’t need a phone call or an email. Just needed that short 140 character message telling me that she’s there for me. It’s amazing how something so sweet and small made such an impact on my burdens that were so big and stressful, I’m so blessed
Like a story, because a chapter has ended it doesn’t mean there’s not another following, love that ends. Doesn’t really leave that easily, as much as a couple deny they no longer feel something they both know in their hearts that there’s still something. So long as one heart still beats the other one will always follow, another chapter will begin..
Whenever silence sets in, it’s not because there’s nothing left to say. It’s because there’s a time when the hearts need to speak, otherwise how will you know what it is that you are feeling? the heart speaks to you to tell you after all. Right?
Though love may fade over time and memories are forgotten, the places that the once lovers have been are remembered in the past. The hallways still echo of the laughter and the long chats that were there through the day, the lengthy goodbyes before parting until next time. The emotions of watching one another part ways, they all remain within. Maybe, that’s why we feel the way we do whenever we enter them even if the one we used to love isn’t there..
If you are lucky enough to say the three words and hear them back, just remember that someone has just opened their heart enough to let you in. If you ever want to prove your love, do so not with just material gifts but show how much you are willing to emotionally invest into the relationship. What is that? the whole emotion thing? it means share your feelings no matter good or bad, if there’s no communication between you then how can the relationship flourish? real love holds no secrets, deeper love means trusting one another that nothing will ever tear it apart..
When you share something that can’t be described, only felt and you have no explanation as to why. Then you know your heart is in the right place, there’s no feeling like it.
Anyone can make you feel joy and affection, shower you with gifts and give you the world but only one will truly give you the feeling that you will never have to go out and search for, that feeling when you are so sure that it is the right one and you will never doubt again. If you find this feeling in your heart, then that’s when you know you’re truly home because it feels right.
You asked me, would i stop loving you even when you decided to feel nothing for me. I answered when did i ever stop long enough for you to think that i would? every waking moment i think of only hearing your sweet voice as i greet you good morning. Through the day i remind you how amazing you are and how i’m so lucky to be part of your life, through the evening i long to hear you tell me about your day and listen to everything you have to say. It doesn’t matter what we talk about, just as long as you are with me i couldn’t be happier. So, ask me again if i would stop loving you my answer will always be the same, that i love you for all that you are..
You can say goodbye, ignore everything that was ever said and look the other way. But, if you should turn around. What you will see is i’m still here waiting, it won’t matter if you will accept what i have to offer you. I’d rather be just a friend or someone you just know, than to be someone you forgotten somewhere down the road. I meant when it when i said. That i’d be there for you no matter what happens between us or how bad things got, it’s not a promise either. It’s the love that i have always had for you..
When i felt doubt you’ve shown me reason..When i wandered in the dark you have been my beacon of light..When i stumbled you were always there to show me the right way..When my heart broke you have mended it with your warmth..When i needed someone to talk to you never judged..When i needed strength you have shown me that i always had it..When you asked me where you are in my heart i asked you when did you ever leave..i’d be nothing without you..stumbling away tripping over my own feet..