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Perhaps, the hardest things about realizing how far people would go to hurt you. Is, realizing that some people would go to no end even if you have decided to ignore them, there are some of those who gain satisfaction only to watch you react the way they expect you to. So, why give the satisfaction when you can just keep moving forward? nothing to lose and everything to gain? just a thought.
Ever had people in your life that just can’t be real when they talk? they start off with one excuse after another. One reason behind another, behind another. Instead of actually being straight forward, why not just be truthful from the beginning and go from there?sigh, I guess you can’t expect much from people set in their ways huh?
It’s only Thursday, but since i’m off tomorrow. This will be my Friday, this week has probably been the most difficult. Not only did my coworker make his rumor even worse, but he has made me the devil and him the hero among a group of people. It was disappointing to see that they would rather side my coworker who is insanely hated by a number of departments in the building except one, but it has taught me a valuable lesson.
If people are willing to side with someone who is taking advantage of their trust, then what would that say about the people that i am trying to win the trust of? is it worth it? no, i guess it wouldn’t be would it? people who feel they can give me a chance to tell my side, are worth my effort and people who feel the need to shut me out without a chance aren’t worth it to me. Having said that, i leave it to god and prayfully the wisdom of those who are being fooled by a silver tongued snake.
Sometimes, we want so badly to be there for our friends in their times of need. That we forget that sometimes we need to let them work it out of their system on their own, it sounds selfish. I know, but a friend of mine yesterday told me to get lost when i tried to help, but in the process of leaving her be she found the answers that she was seeking. She realized why she was so upset and realized that there was no point of being so upset over something that she had complete control of her emotions over, in turn she became that much more confident and emotionally stronger. I guess what i’m saying is, sometimes the only way we get over something is when we look within ourselves for the strength to get over it. So that it doesn’t hurt us as badly anymore, everyone needs that time alone once in a while.
There are too many times when i wonder why i care so much, about people who just want me to entertain them and feed their need for attention and popularity. Too many times i’m always standing there politely saying hello and all they are doing is looking around for better, then when they find better they walk away leaving me to look like a fool talking to myself. I really need to stop wasting time around these people and take a page from them, i won’t use others for the sake of personal entertainment however. Otherwise i’d go down to their level, no. I will be the better person by simply ignoring them, why should i be someone’s fool when i could be everything to someone who actually appreciates me? i’m not bitter. I’m actually thankful for her showing me how worthless i am, before i realized that i needed to change my perspective on things.
Hypocrites! that’s the word i’d use for a lot of people these days, some people hate it when they know others are talking about them. Yet most of the times they are the ones going behind people’s backs! even worse they are also the ones that hold a grudge over the most trivial things but they expect you to forgive them on the fly? what’s that all about and how is that at all fair? nobody is perfect but these people are just too much. Sometimes I wish they’d grow up, but most the time I’d prefer to avoid them altogether.
Jealousy, I have to admit that it is one of the things I’m still working out of my system. It hasn’t been easy but when I give it some thought, I realize that it’s a feeling that only brings more grief in the end. It’s easy to think that being jealous will show someone that you are thinking of them. When in reality, all you’re doing is telling them that you can’t trust them to be faithful to you. This damages the very foundation in which relationships at any level are made, so if you love someone make sure that trust each other or be ready to lose each other too soon.
So, once again I’m reminded why there are only so many people that remain real and honest, I’ve been screwed over again by my coworker! last time he went to the store and tried to hook me up with one of the girls there, I didn’t ask him to and I apologized to the girl for what he did and she freaked out (long story), just today he again told them more about me to make them utterly dislike me, what the hell!? they don’t even speak to me so how would they know what’s true and what’s not? this coworker is in his late 40′s by the way and the girls are 25 at oldest and the guy flirts with them, he offers them candy etc, here’s the kicker though, every time I seem to prove I’m a nice guy he goes in and stomps all over that for his sake, so this proves what? that you can’t really trust just anyone, people simply use others for their own selfish needs, this is the second time this week I’ve felt used and toyed with, it’s starting to get old, I guess getting rid of those people in my life really is the right thing to do, I don’t need the stress.