Time may have faded our memories and with them..Our dreams..But nothing..Will ever change how I feel..For it is through my heart..That the love you shared continues to shine through..
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Let go of your past and you let go of your pains, let go of all your regrets and you open the doorway to your future. Let go of your expectations and you will know patience, let go of the ones that have hurt you worst and you will find peace. Letting go doesn’t always have to be a hard decision, sometimes it’s just the right one to make.
See the world as it is..feel with your heart..set your soul free and let the world move around you..listen with an open mind and you will find..the world is truly amazing just the way it is..
The sad reality is, no matter how much someone promises they won’t. They will eventually hurt you one way or another, whether it is accidental or intentional. It happens because we are only human, we all have our limits and react differently to every situation. So long as we don’t give in to our emotions, we can move forward and know we are stronger than we know.
Take a man’s land ..
He will reclaim another..
Take a man’s possessions ..
He has all he ever wants..
Take a man’s pride …
He will earn it back under god’s eyes..
Take away his dreams..
He already made them into reality..
Take his love from him..
He will loose his will to go on..
A man’s world is..
In the one he holds deepest in his heart
Why didn’t I fulfill my dreams? why didn’t I achieve my goals?how come I’m here now? how come I’m not where I want to be? we all ask these questions every day but I put forth one question myself. Why ask these questions? why not take what you have now and make it into something so great that these will no longer matter? I don’t have all the answers, but even if I did I’d prefer not knowing so I’ll always have something to strive for.
Another year is slowly coming upon us, the time when we put aside the past and leave it where it is. I guess, it’s almost like spring cleaning only this time it’s emotionally and maybe partly physical as we start storing and putting away everything that reminds us of what has already past, the things that we will never have back. Such as words said and feelings long gone, it’s strange. It’s so easy to put away a picture but it’s so hard to put away the emotions attached to it, i guess it’s what makes us human isn’t it? the ability to feel so strongly about something even when part of us knows it’s over? wish i could store my feelings in an object, then put it away so that it could fade along with time. If only it were that easy, but i guess i have a stubborn heart.
Cast aside all your doubts..they were given to you by the experiences from others in your past..so were not really truly from your heart…ignore it and think of it no longer..put aside all your questions..the answers will come on their own timing..nothing can be rushed if the answers have yet to reveal themselves..just spend the days in peace..the peace that we share even apart..knowing that despite our distance we have made it this far..the peace knowing..that simply telling you i love you barely says enough to describe how i feel about you..
It’s a funny thing that seems to happens to me a lot, I keep running into people that look similar to someone I missed at one point or another. Is it a mind thing I wonder? or is it the definition of the old saying “You see what you want to see rather than what’s real”? it’s been months and I’m over that failed relationship but maybe some things I still miss. Am I alone on this or making any sense?
When do we listen to our heart..when are we willing to accept what it is truly what we want..and not what we feel is right at the time..? is it when we are alone in our silence and thinking about where this is all going..? if so..know that i am at peace..in the silence always waiting to listen if you ever need someone who will listen to your thoughts and never judge..as i always have been..as i always will be..
Have you ever wondered? why is it so easy to believe people care about how we feel? one small act and we begin to believe that to be genuine affection, then one small phrase and we believe that to be genuine words from the heart. I wonder, are we just wired to believe that people generally have good intentions? don’t get me wrong, there’s nothing wrong with being optimistic! just tired of people who take advantage of this for their own amusement, you know?
When I was getting my dogwood diploma, the last course I needed was my math. I always dreaded it, but at least I learned something useful. In class our teacher explained the word GIGO. It stood for garbage in, garbage out when we put our formulas into our scientific calculators.
If have one pet peeve that I’ve noticed I am sick and tired of? it’s people who say they lied to protect my feelings. How exactly is a lie ever the right thing to do? when all I end up with is a lie that will hurt more in the end? on top of the fact that my trust has been misplaced? seriously. I have to wonder, when will some people learn what it means to be honest for once.
Have you eve wondered, if it’s worth sacrificing something good in the hopes of something greater? even if it means that in the end there’s a chance that it could never be the same again? it’s so easy to fall for someone despite all the signs that you shouldn’t, then it’s bliss up until the point where it falls apart and we are left wondering why we ever took the chance. Am i the only one who wonders about this?
Here’s another inspiration to why I write, this is an old newspaper that was left in a parkade entrance booth. It’s been there for months now, so nobody really reads it anymore. But, a few years from now this paper will be a part of the past. Then long after the words within will be a part of history, this is one of the many reasons I write. So that my even when I’m forgotten, at least my words will remain somewhere still..
I used to believe that there was always good in someone, that no matter how bad their decisions are or how wrong their actions might be. That there was always a reason behind every action and i just didn’t see it. But, sometimes i have to wonder if i am just too busy lying to myself to see the truth. The past few days, i keep getting the feeling that people are constantly wearing one mask after another. A lie behind another lie, or an ambition behind a kind act. Am i the only one who’s feeling this way? just a thought.
A friend made a post on her blog that got me thinking, yeah. People do fall in and out of love and people drift apart, but is it really that simple and to the point? some things aren’t so mutual, I for one wonder if i’ll really ever find someone who doesn’t feel the need to drift away and vanish from my life in a few months, am I the only one that feels this way?the feeling of looking back and noticing that you’re mentioning almost everyone in past tense?
It’s true, what they say about taking it as it comes. Things do work out that much better, even old friendships seem renewed. I don’t know why, maybe because everything is taken slow and easy instead of always worrying about what’s coming and what’s not. I don’t think anything in life is meant to be rushed anyways, I hope this lasts because I’m happy that for once things are going good on the personal level.
I’m looking at all these people that i pass by on the way to work, some are so happy with each other that they share more smiles than i ever seen before. Yet, on the other end i see some couples clearly drifting. Is it just another typical day? or are people forgetting that love is about giving and compromising? if love is all about taking then what’s there left in the end? what more is there to look towards?
Life can feel like a set of doors..we open one door that leads from one decision to the next and to the next one after that..but once we open a door we can’t close it again and just have to accept that it was a decision made that can’t be changed..how I wish I could close some doors in my life..if only I had made the better choices..
I am but a leaf in your memories..you once saw me as i was..full of life and with a purpose by your side..whenever you looked up you would look for me and shared with me your thoughts and your desires..on the other days i gave you comfort whenever you needed it..but..over time like the seasons passed..we drifted apart as though time had decided we had our chance..not long after..just like a faded leaf i had left your memories..we may have faded from each other but..time has not forgotten and i know we will meet again some day and pick up where we left off in this lifetime..
They say that there are an infinite number of parallel universes..infinite possibilities and infinite combinations..if that’s true ..then i must of gotten lost somewhere along the way because i could almost swear..that at one point i did use to matter to you..or do dreams transcend realities too? if this is true then allow me my slumber from which i will not wake and return me to the bliss i felt when i still had that dream with you..
Radiance has nothing to do with how good you’re with make up, or even how many people are trying to pursue a relationship with you. It doesn’t even have to do with how much wealth you have, those are terrific things to have for some. But, they don’t show your inner glow. The real you deep down, the best way to show it? be honest to yourself and be kind to others, in their eyes they will always see your glow so much more than anything you wear or any make up you might put on yourself.
The funny thing about arrogant people I find, is their constant assumption that people are interested in them. So, they pick and choose who they will and won’t respond to. It’s hilarious because they are wasting their time doing this, all the while nobody really cares whether or not they respond! I swear I sometimes don’t know whether to pity these arrogant people or leave them be.
The beautiful thing about being completely open to each other, is that absolute trust. Knowing that no matter what you ever say, you will not be judged and that nothing that is said will ever change what is already there. This, is what relationships are supposed to be about. It’s not about always choosing the right words to say at the right moments, or even sending one gift after another. None of those say a thing about what you are feeling or thinking, just be honest and completely open to each other. Because, before you know it? the relationship just went to a whole new incredible level!
If there’s a relationship killer, it’s that of assumptions. There’s never any basis or justification for assuming something, especially if there’s no solid proof to back that thought. Worst part of it is, it shows the lack of trust that you are giving to your lover because you are doubting you’ll get told the truth. How can there possibly be love, if there’s no trust in the foundation? right?
You can be anything you want to be in your lifetime, you can be a Nobel prize writer or cure cancer. Maybe even end all the plagues, just make sure that you are doing it to benefit everyone and not for self gratification. There’s nothing more amazing, than watching others take it to the next level thanks to your example. Take it from a father to a loving daughter, doing for others than yourself is a reward in itself!
Life is filled with questions and commitments unfulfilled, instead of questions answered and commitments carried out.
The trouble with expecting someone from your past to care about your feelings, is that it feels like digging for gold in your own backyard. It’s all false hope and fooling yourself into thinking you will find what you are looking for. When in the end, there’s just disappointment. But, by then you have dug yourself so deep it takes time and reliving all those moments again to get back out. So, ask yourself. Was it worth it?
Sometimes, I do feel sorry for people who are obsessed with being the interest in everyone’s eyes. It’s as if they can’t live without flirting with everyone they come across, they obsess with themselves so much and have no second thoughts about knocking you down and walking all over you in order to get to where they want to be.
My daughter and I were watching the Peking acrobats earlier today, it was incredible watching these performers break almost every law of physics. From jumping through hoops 8 feet up to stacking 8 chairs on nothing but wine bottles. We unfortunately couldn’t get the DVD’s due to not having cash on us, we rely too much on interact, but what we were incredibly impressed with was these 10 – 14 year olds perform dances with INCREDIBLE agility and ability to co-ordinate themselves. They did it with so much energy and clearly enjoyed doing what they do, they even had a girl no taller than my daughter lifting one of her fellow performers after another onto a tree branch without so much as an effort! at one time they had the girls stacked on three and the smallest one was on bottom lifting them up with no more than just her two arms firmly on the ground!
I love talent, it’s the one thing that captures my heart so deeply more than anything. The world could use more real talent like this, people who show everyone that there’s no such thing as limits so long as the human spirit is the driving force behind every action.
I so wish, that some people would recognize that talent is so much more than being the most popular person on social media, or even having lots of people gawking begging for a piece of attention. Those are just desires and ambitions, real talent is when you show people what can be achieved with pure determination, i hope i didn’t step on any toes from this post but this is just my personal opinion.