Category Archives: Diary

Going nowhere fast


Have you ever watched the one you truly deeply love, start to drift away from you and you don’t know why? then found your mind racing a mile a minute with all the possibilities and wondered if you were right the entire time?

It’s almost like going out the door and walking down the road with no destination in mind, you keep thinking of all these possibilities and all these maybe’s and if’s. It’s not a good place to be either, because at the end of it all you will look back and notice that the one you were getting all worked up over? hasn’t moved at all and you are the one who has spent all this time getting nowhere all on your own. Was it worth it? i think not, better off talking about it and if it wasn’t meant to be? then so be it. It’s time to move on, if it is meant to be though? then remember that love is patient and understanding. No matter how bad things get, it can always be resolved simply by talking about it. 

Everything falls into place on it’s own


A few minutes ago, I saw a couple outside who were touring Vancouver all the way from Spain. They were trying to figure out a way to get to the team store, they didn’t speak english well and so me being fluent in Spanish I directed them.

Upon entering the store we had a chat in Spanish about the building, they asked if they could look inside etc. All the while we are doing this a couple of girls from the store were confused about what I was saying, but I was polite to them inquiring about the tour pricing etc for the tourists and translating. I guess I’m not as much a monster that I was painted to be was I? within a few minutes we were off, the guests absolutely loved the building and took tons of pictures. They had a blast!

After the tour I brought them back to the store to let them shop some more, as I opened the door though Ronda was again ready to bolt away from me. I opened the door for her as she motioned towards it and simply greeted hello, I guess I’ll never win her trust as long as she believes what my backstabbing coworker says about me but. My conscience is clear and I’ve done nothing wrong, I’m grateful about god giving me the chance to show at least two of the girls at the store that I can be a decent guy.

I guess what I’m saying is, life can be cruel and incredibly unfair but if you have the patience? good things will come your way.

For some, it’s just their nature


We often meet someone who gives us the impression that they are interested, they give us that feeling of certainty making us think that we finally found the one.

Sadly, at the same time we forget that for some. It is in their nature to be the way they are, it soon after dawns on us that all the effort we put in was for nothing. Misunderstandings and false hope follows soon after and you wonder why you ever tried.

Save yourself the trouble of ending up in false hopes and painful disappointments, see how they are with others before you decide that they really feel that way about you first.

Story of hopes and dreams


Take ahold a cherished memory on one hand…then take your deepest most profound feelings on the other..hold them breathe hope into what had become your dreams..release it into the air..someone will not only see it but someone will also find you and take you there..have faith and never lose hope..

This is a story of my hopes and dreams, through my entire life. I have had my heart shattered at every turn, I’ve been used and lied to. Because people take advantage of my trusting nature, it’s come to the point where I feel I needed to let go of the one good memory I ever actually had, to see if anyone would help me replace it with an incredible one. with faith in my heart I’ve found someone, she found my wandering thoughts and without her. I never would be where I am now, someone out there is waiting for you too if you just believe.